In my school days I fell in love with a guy. I quite adored him a lot but for a very long time I didn’t knew that the feeling was not mutual, still we got committed as he asked me out.
As the feeling was not mutual the troubles were meant to get started, as soon as the relationship did. When I & that guy were fighting in the quest of love in our relationship, a guy entered the scenario without even letting us know. He was his friend & his name was Siddhartha. Whenever I & that guy had a fight, Siddhartha sorted out our matters always. But it was quite obvious that the relationship would not work. Unfortunately when I realized this thing it had been too late & he dumped me. He was such an arrogant guy. I was broken & lost. I was trying to forget him because he conquered everything in me. It was my fault. I loved him so much & gave him everything without leaving anything for myself & but as usual Siddhartha handled the situation n me quite efficiently.
At that point of time when no one was with me Siddhartha was there with me at every moment to encourage me & to make me realize that a bright future is waiting for me.
Finally after that appreciable support & care of Siddhartha I came out of that hell within few months. The interesting thing was I & Siddhartha were together for 6 months . We were in touch always. We gave best wishes to each other on festivals. But yet none of us asked out for friendship formally.
6 months later we did became friends (formally) & then we became best friends with the time. We were always together in our all ups & downs in life. We had lots of late night chatting & kept talking on phone for 4-5 hrs. We both were always so naughty & flirty with each other. Well we started to say “I love you” on calls but just as friends.
Later Siddhartha told me that he fell in love with a girl. Firstly, I thought that might be, he was kidding. But I was wrong. Initially, my reaction was positive but later on as we were best buddies so he told me about his conversations with his girl. Later I started feeling jealous from her. Then I realized that I got so attached to him. Yet it was not sure that it was love or not?
But after 3 months of Siddhartha's relations with his girl, it didn’t work. Siddhartha honestly told his girl that he is not comfortable with this relation. Well, it shouldn’t be but still I was feeling great because now he will spend his time with me only.
Like before Siddhartha's commitment, again we started spending lots of time with each other. As I knew that somewhere I was so attached with him that I started thinking that I’ll not marry because after that I’ll not be able to spend this much time with him. He was always a special part of my life because he was the only guy with whom I shared my feelings. Slowly n steadily I was getting more attached to him with the time. Whole day I kept on thinking about him.
Again a Storm came in my life & that was unpredictable. Siddhartha stopped responding to my calls, messages & mails. Around for a month I kept trying to get in touch with him anyhow. But no response came. Once his friend received the call & scolded me badly to not to call him again. I was just his good friend for him but for me he was my angel & my best buddy without whom life seemed to be impossible. I was not able to sleep & had proper diet. Tears would not end until he came back. When we were together as best buddies we never met each other. I always dreamed to meet him & unfortunately it was left as a dream for me. After one & half month I called him again & unexpectedly he received my call & told me to call him later. Again I called but as usual he didn’t respond.
My thoughts of him were haunting me badly. I thought of him endlessly like my promise of being with him forever. He might lose his grip but never will I. He might forget what we had & how much happy I was when he came in my life & stopped for a while in life. He might hurt me a lot but I liked him still because he was always with me in my darkest days. I was ready to give him my all to have another moment with him. I can even risk my life to save him. He might leave me but his memories were always with me. Sometimes in my lonely hours there was a question that bothered me “Will he ever come back?”
After 3 months one night I saw him in my dream & in the morning I called him but again he didn’t respond. Fortunately, in the evening I received a text to call back him again. As I called him I was so happy because I found him as he was before when we were best buddies.
Siddhartha came into my life again unexpectedly. I never thought that I would be feeling this way again. He made my days so great & brightened up my life again. I want to let the whole world know how much it hurt when I lost him & now that he is back, there is no way of letting him go again.
After spending couple of months with him he proposed me at midnight when we were on call & that was the most special & wonderful moment of my life. I accepted his proposal as it was a pleasure to be his life partner. Next day of my commitment with Siddhartha I got a beautiful surprise. He proposed me for marriage & again my answer was “yes why not?” Then he told me that for the 3 months he went away from my life because he was feeling infatuated to me & he wanted to make sure that “did he really love me?” After realizing that he truly loves me & want to spend rest of his life with me he proposed me. Now I am happily spending a beautiful life with him holding my hands.
Whenever he smiles my world stops revolving, whenever he calls I start to stammer, whenever he shows care all I want to do is to hug him tightly.
With Siddhartha I can be ME, no mask no more pretensions. With Siddhartha I feel like I am the most beautiful person in the world. With him I feel heaven besides me. I want to thank God for leading him back in my life because he came when I was losing hope. Now that when he is here, all I want to do is to hug him for real & love him until God take my breath away.
I am truly, madly & deeply in love with Siddhartha………….
I love his laugh because it seems to seduce me……………….
I love it when he teases me……………………………………
I love it when he calls me just to hear my voice……………...
I love it when he wakes up early just to wake me up…………
I love it when we argue who loves more……………………..
I am Happy………………
Because he finds me when no one is looking.
Because he has given his love n life to me.
I love Siddhartha today, will love him tomorrow & until my very last breath because he is the air that I breathe, the reason of my life. As you may have heard that a person is real lucky to have a life partner in his\her best friend. I'll always thank god for bestowing such great luck over me.
Siddhartha is “THE MAN OF MY FUTURE”.
